long project

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painting like crazy for the gallery show next month, but at the same time have to keep deadlines for the book projects. meeting deadlines has been really tough, and i have to blame it on my inability to stop multitasking. this nervous tick has got to go.

i know that the next step to this stage is to work on something bigger, and actually be spontaneous about it, rather than create the illusion of spontaneity - which i think is what has carried me along thus far.

visually spontaeous, but technically very calculated

recently i have been visualizing a fist unclenching, gradually opening to show the flat of the palm, and this has helped me to relax my mind and reorient myself for the next upcoming task. sometimes i rotate the disconnected arm in my head, inspecting it slowly as it turns. this seems to work too. generally any slow shape transformation will refresh my mind. this kind of relaxation benefits me more than sleeping, which - though i get enough of - is always sort of dissatisfying.

sketches for the graphic novel
thumbnails have been okay/easy
anything after that is really hard to do

okay, well i'll post again very soon to announce the "i love you a little" show at studios gallery. bye for now...!

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stuff for you, stuff for me

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carolyn commissions

scones for me

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5x7s

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doodles

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at gaylord's for about an hour tonight, brainstorming with thien

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